So I'm realizing that I'm starting to understand less as I grow up. Follow me here... When we are young our main objective is to have fun and to stay happy. When we're young we don't see flaws and failure, ignorance and violence, life and death. All we see is just what's there in front of us. We don't read into things. We don't over analyze. We just accept.
When we are young we want to be older. How many times did I add "and a half" to my age when asked how old I was? When I was twelve I dreamed of being thirteen and finally being a teenager, not a child. When I was fifteen I dreamed of being sixteen and driving. When I was seventeen I dreamed of being eighteen and free. And who doesn't want to be twenty-one? That might be the best birthday of all, if you can remember it!
But once you get to that age, once you get "older" you realize that you had it really good when you were younger. No responsibility, no bills, no job, no college loans... You were just that kid who saw everyone as equal. That kid whose biggest worry was not getting home in time to watch Power Rangers (don't even deny that you watched that show!). That kid who had it all and wasted all that time wishing for something else.
I suppose life is just wishing you were somewhere else, someone else, doing something else. No one is ever satisfied and if they are for a second they are too distracted by something else so it passes. I feel that as I grow older I understand less about human nature and the world.
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i LOVE this blog! i have been feeling like this more and more lately! what happened to no repsonsibility? and no financial responsibility? its great growing up but its sorta the dumps..haha
Wonderful post! I totally agree with you. I feel that everyday I understand less and less about what I thought I knew. I have anxiety and fears that I never had back when I was a carefree young spirit :(
Perhaps, even thought I feel as though I'm on a slippery slope to crazyland, maybe its because I understand more. Less control, makes me crazy though.
Good point! When I was in high school everyone couldnt wait to get out into the real world. Well now that we are all here is sucks and we want to go back. I know I do. Life was alot less complicated. You only had to worry about the little things like who was dating who and what you were going to wear to school. Oh to be carefree again!!!
It's like you took the words out of my mouth. Lately I just want to stay this age forver. Time is going so fast and I can't stop it. This is my only class and I don't know how many times I bitched about being in college and guess what I just want to go back. I miss it and it's only been two months without it. I know right will we ever be happy I mean really happy like your senior year day. I don't think so anymore.
I think there are many stages to this life and the important thing is to enjoy each stage. I know that getting older makes some of us feel a little uneasy, but that uneasiness is what makes us know that we are alive and we are in the struggle of this great world. Make sure you take the time to see the greatness of our daily struggles.
You hit the nail on the head with this one! Who are you telling? LOL!!! I turn 31 this month and have a 10 year old son so I'm getting it from both ends! On my end of the thinking, I feel like I am older than I really am. I don't really have any regrets but looking back, there are few things that I missed out on doing. Oh, how I wish I sometimes that I didn't have some of the responsibilites that I have now!!! My son, on the other hand, is 10 going on 25! He's can't get older fast enough, or so he thinks! He can't wait to do this and can't waut to do that. When you are old, you wish you were young again and when you are young, you can't wait to grow up!
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